One of the ways our brain tricks us...

As I was sitting in a yoga class in the middle of the mountains on the remote South Island of New Zealand (how haughty, I know 🫣) I had one word dancing around my head. 

Deserving. 

See I had been on a two week trip around the south island with my husband, and I was essentially forbidden to work. The last vacation we went on, I spent numerous hours sitting in a van on the side of the road trying to chase the money on my laptop. Click-clacking away.

As you can imagine, this didn’t leave me in the best standing with him afterwards… So, in order to keep my husband, who I quite like, I promised I would be on my best behavior and stay away from work this time around. 

Although the ever present noise of social media wasn’t at my fingertips, the noise in the back of my mind was a much larger battle. I couldn’t allow myself to truly relax. I can assure you that relaxation was needed, but I deep down didn’t think I deserved it. 

It dawned on me that too often we stop ourselves from doing “the thing” because we don’t truly believe we deserve the thing we so desperately want.  

How often have you cheated yourself from an experience because of the voice inside of your head telling you should have done more in order to be in the room, the mountain, the vacation, the space. 

This can show up in many different ways during the journey we call life. 

We may not take the scary step forward to healing, or success within our own mind, because we don’t believe wholeheartedly that we deserve the happiness of existing in a healthier body or the fun of a trip away treating yourself. 

I find women have a subconscious balancing system built into our brains. 

“I did this, so it allows me to have that” 

But what if we started looking at it from a different angle… 

“I am taking care of myself in this way, so I can show up fully for that.” 

Still stuck? 

Let me lend you some personal examples… 

“I am taking care of myself by scheduling personal movement classes, so I can show up fully for my clients with new ideas.” 

“I am taking care of myself through a personal day of rest, so I can show up fully for my partner when he needs me.” 

“I am taking care of myself by meal prepping, so I can show up fully for my busy week ahead with nutrient dense meals.” 

I am guilty of continuously pushing forward to a point of exhaustion or extreme stress, until it is too late and I realize my happiness has been zapped. 

So while I was staring out the window, looking at the mist coming off the mountains, soaking in the relaxing sounds of birdsong, I repeated to myself time and time again “I am deserving.” 

Because we ALL ARE! 

So, I ask you… 

Where are you on your deserving quest? 

What is something you want, and what is truly stopping you from doing it? 

Go get it. You are so much more deserving than your brain may be telling you right now.